Some of you may know of my recent panic-attack in NIE due to stress from the immense workload.
Upon reaching home from Qi's cell and worship practice in church today, my mind was filled with thoughts - many negative ones - and all I was thinking of was ESCAPISM. Very bad way out, but an often-chosen one. I can be quite an escapist.
On the MRT home I was thinking of many things to do. Just de-stress, perhaps watch my newly bought Israel and New Breed DVD, or one of my new VCD's from TS-Link. Maybe sleep.
Then I just knew that all that wouldn't help. I knew that having done all that, surely I would still be as frustrated. As stressed.
I decided to write a letter to Jesus. I copped my beautiful Fujitsu laptop, opened a Word Document, and began typing Jesus a letter.
Dear Jesus,
We need to talk.
There are so many things on my mind and I'm feeling so discouraged right now.........
Sorry, the rest is censored. :) I tell Jesus all my complaints and secrets.
But the best thing is that it He talks back to me as I talk to Him. (Or, type to Him.) He began correcting me of some wrong thoughts, alerting me to some false notions, and in all honesty, after about half an hour of casting my cares on Him, much of the frustration left me.
It always works when we ask Him to fill us with peace. He'll give, most generously.
Raymond recently recommended me Selwyn Hugh's Every Day with Jesus and MAN, IT'S GOOD STUFF. All I read was the prelude and Day 1 of the devotional reading and I've highlighted 4 sentences which I hope I'll never forget. Excellent stuff. Grab a copy if you can.
Yumms. Ahma just delivered some peeled longans. I love my Ahma to the max!!! :)
September 03, 2005
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